Im still alive

Phew, it's finally over. School is back and I am back to having my mornings free, and I am sooooo ready for it. Last week I thought MS was going away and was ecstatic to finally be able to enjoy being pregnant, but then this weekend bought me back to reality. MS is still here, and still has the power to bring everything back up. I wished for MS at the start just so I could feel safe and like this time might be different, now 11 weeks in I just wish it would go away. It is ruining my days, and I feel like everything is an effort. My house is nowhere near as clean as it used to be, and DP is just as useless as he's been having stressful times at work and physically exhausted. Besides, we all know a man's "clean" is nothing like a women's.

Time is going so slowly to me, I feel like everyone else I follow is progressing faster and passing me! Is my little corner of the world on slow pace? 11 weeks, or 12 if by LMP. Oh how I wish my scan had not been a week behind.  In life I have seen a few pregnancy announcements on FB and it's just made me so much much more upset at how slow it is going, I want to finally have that feeling of people knowing and congratulating me. Usually i'm just the one sitting reading about everyone else's going "whens my turn?" and my turn is very very close!
I mentioned in my last post about DPs friend who is an expecting father, they announced their pregnancy last week so she is 2 weeks ahead of me, which is not far at all. Another person who announced theirs I was not so thrilled about, and not because I do not like the person, but because I fear for the baby. She is not mature enough to even look after herself safely and hygienically, let alone a helpless child. Drug loving, minimal clothing, 'gangsta' wannabe, law hating citizen. Yes, she is one of those. She will not tell anyone how far along she is, which has raised eyebrows. She has had her first scan, so she should know, but will not say. What is the point in announcing it if you aren't going to tell people about it? Secondly, she has history of twins in her family and I swear to god if she has two I will scream.

Well there is not much else I have going on in life to update on, my life is actually THAT boring. :/

Week 9 Update + More

Wow these school holidays are CRAZY busy. I am just so tired by the time I come home I eat, sleep, wake, work, eat, sleep... etc etc. And we had our sleepover Friday just been, and I felt the best I have in ages! No sickness, pheeew. It's going away now, MS that is, and I am quite happy to see the end of it on the horizon. Yes, it also makes me worry that something has gone wrong, but I just need to push that to the back of my mind. No spotting, bleeding and still get other symptoms so I will be A-OK. :)

How Far Along? By scan dates today is 10 weeks. Double digits YAY!

How big is baby? Week 9 my baby is a little olive

How I'm feeling? Much better now, just so so tired! And missing a few things of non-pregnant life.

Weight? Unsure.

How I'm changing? My skin is in hate-me mode, so hormones are playing crazy games. Otherwise just slowly growing 

What I miss? Luncheon! OMG I want luncheon soooo bad. One those Ham & Chicken luncheon rolls, I could just eat one all up. Everytime a child at work has a ham sandwich I just want to cry. Also some shrimps and surimi wouldn't go a miss...

Symptoms?  Either loving or hating food and drink. Tired. Otherwise seem to be doing ok...

Aversions?  Hmm, just anything that smells strong. 

Meds? Same as before. 

Appts? Still the same: Midwife on 25th, and scan+bloods on 29th. Coming slooooowly...

Just as another thought, I am having trouble deciding when I want to tell people, I thought previous that once I hit 12 weeks I would do it. Then a few things popped up, like my mothers bday which will be at 11 weeks 2 days, and a staff party which will be at 11 weeks 6 days. 

However with my not having another appointment till 13 weeks I am much too scared incase I tell and at ultrasound they say "sorry we can't find a heartbeat" and I would publicly have to go through a miscarriage.

Aaargh decision decisions!

I have thought HOW i would like to tell people, I am planning to take a picture of DP hugging me from behind, with my top pulled up, and "Baby *last name* coming 2013" or "Coming soon" something along those lines, written on my belly. :) Then it's a little different to most people who post their 13 week scan and announce with that. I'd like to be different.

Writing this just reminded me of a funny story too. Last weekend I was feeling totally shattered on Friday night and just wanted bed. Fell asleep on the couch, woke myself up snoring (which I NEVER do so DP decided he had to record it), and was sweating like a mad man. DP was full of beans so I said to him to go out and enjoy a night without me lol. He carried me to bed and organised for his mates to come get him.

Skip to 4am and DP dragging himself into bed, and all I can see is his phone lighting up all over the place, but he was so tired he just left it till morning. Woke in morning and he was texting looking at me all confused/worried, turns out someone whom I don't like had text him and said 'Congratulations on baby' he text back pretending he knew nothing and asking who had told her I was pregnant, she told us who so DP text him. He then wondered what on earth we were on about as he hadn't told her that, I began to panic thinking "what the hell is going on!". Few hours later the guy who was blamed for telling her had found the issue, turns out that DP's friend he was with had told said guy that HIS partner is at home hormonal because she's pregnant. Said guy then mentioned it to a group and she thought they were referring to DP and myself. 

1) I breathed a huge relief and also giggled that they were so bang on but didn't even realise and 2) what a coincidence that both DP and his friend had hormonal gfs at home! I don't know the other pregnant women, and said guy didnt know how far along she is but she's not very far. I am happy DP had a friend he can turn to when we announce our news too. :) 

This is getting long, and I am getting hungry so I must go now. After next week I should be back to my blogging self, fingers crossed! :)

Weekly Update - Week 8

I think this must one of the few Fridays i've actually done it on the right day haha.

How Far Along? I'm going to go by scan dates since that what everything else is running by, so today is 9 weeks.

How big is baby? Week 8 baby is a raspberry. :)

How I'm feeling? Bit better than other weeks, but as I get closer to 13 weeks without bleeding then it's bound to get better. :)

Weight? Unsure.

How I'm changing? Boobs are huge, stomach is sticking out and hard to hide. Hair is getting oily, ew. 

What I miss? Pre-MS happiness, and my belly not protuding so much. I won't mind about that when people know, but it's hard to hide.

Symptoms?  Getting less MS during the day, night still SUCKS. And I can't seem to stay awake past 9pm. Hungry aaaaalllll the time. Getting small cravings, but not full on ones. LOVING peanut butter.

Aversions?  Garlic Bread. Really really can't do that one atm. 

Meds? Went back to Dr and he prescribed me B6 (? is that the right number?) tablets, but still have so Meto tablets for when really need them. 

Appts? Midwife on 25th, and scan+bloods on 29th :) Not so smiley at the bloods part...

Invisible

So I have been pretty slack lately, I'm not blogging like I used to and I am not making videos either.
To be honest, I just forget sometimes and other times I feel so crappy that I just cannot even think about picking up my computer.

I'm sorry, I wish i could post more often but I just don't know what to say. I'm still reading everyone's blogs and following your journeys, some happy and some not so much, but i'm still there supporting you!

Whats new with me? Well MS seems to finally be slowly drifting away, thank goodness! I won't miss her, but I have this feeling she may be back again sometime later.

Dr had prescribed me some Metoclopromide (or something like that..) but it didn't seem to be working too well, so went back and today he tried me on some B6 tablets. So we'll see how that goes, but I'm hoping with it going away that it'll all be ok for the next two weeks.

The next two weeks I am petrified of. Not for worry of loosing bub, but because I have to work 8am-5pm with only fleeting moments of time to myself. I will constantly be nibbling, and drinking, and i'm sure some workmates will find this strange. Even more nerve wracking is that if I do need to vomit, I have limited toilets and only one is non-public, but is still very close to reception and I swear people would hear me vomit. :/
Fingers crossed.

Next Friday also I will be running a sleepover out of town, we are going to the zoo. Wee! I am very nervous that some smells will be overpowering and that perhaps I can't do my morning routine I have come to rely on. :( Will def be taking myself lots of snacks and my tablets!

Booked my 13 week scan yesterday, exciting! :) At my last scan baby measured a week behind my LMP date which I've always wondered whether she will catch up, if not it means I found out at 3 weeks 1 day. Is this even possible? Guess we will find out.

I have my MW appointment the week beforehand, so I'm hoping she will have a doppler for us to hear babys heartbeat on, but I will still be happy knowing I have not bled!

Well thats about all happening with me, I am a very boring person ATM. Haha, I shall do my next weekly update tomorrow yaaay!

Weekly Update - W7

I think this must one of the few Fridays i've actually done it on the right day haha.

How Far Along? By LMP: 8+3, By Scan: 7 + 5, By Ovulation 8 + 1. So who knows!

How big is baby? End of week 7 baby is now about 2cm, but over the week baby is compared to a blueberry. :)

How I'm feeling? Same as last week, still nervous, but bit more confident! Would be better if wasn't sick and constantly worrying about food/drink.

Weight? Unsure.

How I'm changing? Boobs are much firmer and bigger. Belly growing. 

What I miss? Eating anything! Drinking freely. Not waking up dreading the day.

Symptoms?  Sick ALL the time. Haven't vomited in last few days, but that's not for lack of nausea. 

Aversions?  Coffee, sauces, meat. Everything really seems yuck except dry foods like biscuits/crackers/grain waves. Also can't take my iron tablets, they have a fizzing effect and my body does not appreciate it.

Meds? Metoclopramide + Blackmores Morning Sickness + Folic Acid. Don't feel the Meto is working though, so will be returning to Dr.

Appts? Don't get anymore until W13, which seems so far away! But have to ring and book them on Monday. Will be going back to Dr next week to chat about nausea again. 

Fix?

So had Dr appt this morning re:all day sickness, and he has prescribed me Metoclopramide. Take it 3 times daily to start with, then just as I feel I need it to see how it goes.

Took one about an hour ago, and the feeling has got a lot better but we'll see as usually this is the better time of day anyway.
Drinking will be the true test... :/ (Nooo not alcohol, just general liquid drinking haha)

Weekly Update

How Far Along? Well by LMP its 7+3, but by scan i'm 6+4, and by midwife i'm 6+6. :/  So I'll do this weekly update for 6weeks.

How big is baby? The size of a pea. 

How I'm feeling? Much more excited and confident. But oh so nauseas! :( 

Weight? Unsure. I don't have scales and nobody weighs me yet.

How I'm changing? Tummy is growing. Boobs are growing.  

What I miss? Thinking about food and not feeling sick. Being able to eat anything! Waking up and not having to run to the bathroom or eat straight away.

Symptoms? Feeling sick all the time, worse if I don't eat. Tired. 

Aversions? Lots, but changes all the time.

Meds? Folic acid + Iodine + Iron, and Blackmores Morning Sickness tablets.

Appts? No more appts until Week 13, got form to book scan and bloods. So far away! :(